There have been times when I feel so small. When I feel irrelevant. When I’ve had time to think about everything that I’ve done and everything I could’ve done.
I have regrets sure, everyone does.
But sometimes this grief just takes over my mind and body and I have no idea how to explain it. It makes me miserable and the people around me miserable because I am not me, and for awhile I tried to find outlets to supply my emptiness and found only temporary relief.
Have you ever felt like this? Like there was nothing left, nothing to give you the relief that you need?
I found a peace irreplaceable from any other. A peace/relief/reassurance that I’m not fighting alone in a world of 7 billion + people.
God is my refuge.
In 1 Peter 5:7 Peter says – “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”
Insufficiency. Everyone’s biggest fear in life. Society has forced us to think that there is a certain standard to meet by everyone we meet. I have felt this far too many times in my life to say I’m not guilty. There is time after time where I think that because of my lack of knowledge or lack of self that I just feel like a complete failure.
What I have failed to realize is that yeah, I am insufficient, BUT, God has made us all worthy in his eyes. He sent his son down to live among us and teach us his beliefs, all to get sacrificed for our sin.
2 Corinthians 3:5 – “Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God.”
That is all we need. We are sufficient in the eyes of God all because of God. Weird right? But the thing is that we need to find all of our worth in him. No matter how bad of a grade you get on an exam, no matter how many times you get rejected by a friend group, you’re still worthy.
This was a little short compared to my other posts mostly because this was laid pretty heavily on my heart and I was just writing to write. I’ve been following along 1 Peter and 2 Peter with some awesome influences in my life right now and they’ve encouraged me for awhile, but I’ve just been too stubborn to see it. So thank you guys, and thank you to all the other readers who took the time out of their day to read this.
Too many times have I felt insufficient. It’s such a beautiful reminder that my sufficiency is found in the eyes of God, and why would I not share that peace with all of you if I had it?
Romans 15:13 – “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”
Photo: Drone shot in Piedmont Park